Another stuck day

So this is the first blog.  Hmmm.  What is this for? Who will read it? Why will they read it?
Is this the new way to create something new.  To reach out to people over cyberspace...but what for. I guess the purpose of this blog is to try something new.  Create a place where I can use my creative mind to reach a place of Passion.  Where is my passion? I ask because I feel like I am a chameleon.  I adapt to people around me yet me, myself and I don't seem to know who I really am. No in a way that sources my creative juices to the point I can say " this is what I want to do with my life."  This thought makes me so sad inside.  Less than at times.  It's so weird to me, because when I am behind someone elses project I have a ton of energy, focus and drive.  But not for myself.. not for my ideas....  arrgh.

I bring this up because I have been out of full time work, surving in the freelance world for several years now...and I need a change. And I need it now.

So today is another day of struggling to find work.  Where is it? Why is it eluding me.  I am strong, willing to contribute, capable.